Part of the Create My Keepsake January kit includes the Amy Butler / K & Co Fabric tags. On one of the tags there is a quote that says, "What we choose Changes Us, Who we love Transforms Us, How we create Re-Shapes Us, What we do Remakes Us." This is a quote by Dr. Eugene Callender. I love this quote. I was particularly taken with the, "Who we love transforms us" part.
I love to see my kids spend time with Nan. I have such fond, fond memories of the summers that I spent with my grandparents. Reading Little House on the Prairie out on the front porch, picking huge bouquets of Zinnias with Nan, canning green beans and beets, picking gallons and gallons of blackberries and going for long walks in the evenings with her are just a small handful of the memories that I have of Nan. She transformed me. In so many ways. I really do believe that every person that we love in some way transforms us.
It saddens me to no end that my children will not have memories of Nan in the same way that I do. Going to visit Nan in the Alzheimer's Facility makes Breuklyn cry. She says that she just wants Nan to be the way that she used to be. "Why can't she just go home?" she asks me. It is so hard to explain to them what is happening to Nan. I can hardly wrap my head around it, how can I expect them to?
I treasure the small moments of happiness that we have with Nan. The hugs. The giggles. Somehow they seem to be able to pierce through her sadness and make her smile. Even though Nan doesn't recognize Paizlee, her memories of Breuklyn are stronger. I hope that Breuklyn, as her oldest great-granddaughter, will have a few happy memories of Nan as I did, as her oldest granddaughter.